The final week of school has come and gone. It is certainly going to be bitter sweet leaving this town. I'm going to miss my students a lot. They keep asking me why I'm not coming back and it breaks my heart. I'm also going to miss the neighborhood kids. It's going to be weird not having tiny voices calling "hola!" and tapping on our gate nightly. Their sweet faces and personalities will never be forgotten. We often wonder what will become of the kids someday. We certainly hope and pray that they will make it out of their situation. Hopefully with Karla learning English and Minerva that will help her for their future. When Annie and Lauren left the other night, the kids came over to say goodbye. Sergio and Karla (the older 2) started crying. I don't think the younger ones understand that we are leaving for good. It was heartbreaking. Colleen and I will be saying goodbye to them tonight… not looking forward to it. If I could put Ada(the 5 yr old) in my pocket and take her home, I totally would.
But it certainly has been a great semester and I'll cherish and take back so many memories from Honduras. It's been amazing to see how people live here with so little, but yet work so hard for what they do have. It's so interesting to hear people here talk about how they perceive the United States. It's almost like a fantasy to them, especially our students. They see fancy celebrities on tv or even Hannah Montana and think we live in a dream world. But in reality, we really do live in a dream world compared to Honduras. No we might not all live in mansions or drive fancy cars like they see on tv shows, but we do have luxuries that they will never have. Every day when I see a lizard on the walls inside our house or laying in my bed sweating with no fan because the electricity is off.. I just think about how this would never happen to me in the states. The one time a blue tailed lizard came in our house back home because we left the deck door open, my mom and I panicked! We literally went into crazy mode. I hopped in my car to drive to Walmart to get those sticky traps while my mom sat and guarded the corner where the lizard was hiding until I got back. We didn't know what else to do because we were definitely not going to get near the lizard. Here, I go to sleep with not one worry in the world about the dang lizard on the ceiling above my bed! Going without water for 2 days straight has just become a part of life. Living out of a backpack's worth of clothes is SO possible because its what I'm doing right now. Before, I never imagined not having my closet full of cute clothes and different outfit to wear every week. Living without my cell phone for 6th months and no debit card have been surprisingly easy. Its funny how in the states I never use cash… even if I buy a pack of gum from a gas station that costs a dollar, I would still use my debit card. Here, we only have the option of paying in cash. And not only in cash, but you have to exact change for most places. Its crazy how these people run businesses and can't make change. It drove me crazy in the beginning but of course I got used to it.
Im excited to go back home and so beyond thankful for everything I have. God has certainly opened my eyes to a whole new world and this wont be the last time I live and experience a poverty stricken place.